I have shared many of frustrations that has happened when I first came to the Lord the main point I want you to understand is the importance of developing relationships. Always, do what you have to do to take care of family, if you do not work you do not eat. Do not break the Law in doing so. Talk about you faith within the liberty that you have using wisdom in doing so. In addition, ask permission in talking to other's about the Lord no needed to force yourself.